Online Discussion:
Name-Calling,
Mud-Slinging,
and "AA-Bashing"
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Subject: Cliff Walker
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From: KB
You amaze me. Why so bitter and angry ? Why do you feel the need to bash
AA every chance you can get. You should know by now there is a big difference
between religion and spirituality. I have been a member of AA for
almost 8 years -- highly involved in service. I am only 26 and am the future
if you want to say.
My own conception of something greater than my self has enabled
me to live an incredibly productive life. My Higher Power is so far off
the beam than conventional religious beliefs it would make peoples toenails
curl. But, above all else it works.
AA does not demand a Christian God. It only suggests a God
of your own understanding. So if you read the big book a little closer
and lay aside your prejudice, even the biggest atheist or agnostic can
recover. If you really want to get technical; if it was not for AA you
would not be here. AA is the granddaddy of all 12-Step programs.
love and service,
KB.
I disagree with Cliff's view of AA too, but not with his idea of recovery.
We all do what it takes -- for me it's a daily surrender of my will to
the Christian God, Jesus. You are right about AA not demanding acceptance
of a Christian Higher Power. As a matter of fact, the line about "as
we understand Him" was added so that Roman Catholics could enter the
program. AA is based on the Oxford Movement which was a turn of the century
evangelical organization that practices timeless principles -- surrender,
self-discipline, service, and admission of humanity with the willingness
to change.
If you read the book The Imitation of Christ by Thomas a'Kempis
from the 1400's you will find all of the 12 steps of AA in the first chapter.
It isn't a coincidence that the Prayer of St. Francis (Lord, make me an
instrument ... ) is used in the AA book Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions.
I especially enjoy reading the 23rd chapter of Proverbs (end of chapter)
which describes a drunk in Solomon's time. We haven't changed, and what
it takes to recover hasn't either.
Peace and sobriety, One Day at a Time ...
TB
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Subject: Hey, Ken!
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From: Cliff Walker
Are you there? Hope you're okay. I just wanted to thank you for all the
kind words and for your concerted efforts to try to understand a viewpoint
which, until you first heard it, was almost completely unknown to you.
Thanks for the input and the chance to test my ideas. I have really changed
a lot because of you. We have both come a long way.
Now, I'm at it again! (grin) I hope you enjoy my response to the recent
reactionary-ism as the comedy routine that I intended it to be. I
had toyed with the idea of ignoring it, but then the urge got the best
of me. I just can't help myself; I must just be powerless or something.
(grin)
Cliff Walker
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Subject: Here we go again! (grin)
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From: Cliff Walker
Whenever I criticize Alcoholics Anonymous (for not teaching coping skills,
for lying about AA's real position on religion and spirituality, for having
a very poor recovery rate, etc.), AA members launch vicious, personal attacks
against me. They say that my information is false and that I am angry and
bitter, but they hardly ever try to challenge my claims. They just jump
and shout. They want AA to go unchallenged -- despite the trickery used
in carrying the AA message of recovery.
Case in point:
>>KB: "You amaze me. Why so bitter and angry?"
Twelve Steppers and other religious -- er, spiritual people accuse me of
this all the time, but it is a lie. I'm a nice guy and I am very dedicated
to bringing recovery and dignity to the people I end up working with (the
very people who are methodically denounced, discredited, and lied about
in "We Agnostics," the fourth chapter of the AA Big Book).
This is the least I can do considering that I remained addicted for over
fourteen years because "We Agnostics" says -- in no uncertain
terms -- that people such as myself, my family, and those I end up working
with are dishonest simply because we think all talk of "God"
and the supernatural is make-believe. When I needed help, AA and NA
were the only methods available. At the time, both organizations used the
AA Big Book -- which says atheists cannot recover and remain atheists.
Eventually, I abandoned all hope of recovery. I so damaged my body that
today my struggle is to outlive my grandmother. Damn! But I am not angry;
I did it to myself. I didn't know any better. No one ever told me
I could recover without believing a bunch of fictional hooey.
The Twelve Step programs have foisted a very cruel fraud on the American
public -- especially upon the addicted people whose backs are against the
wall. They tell us that the Twelve Step programs are not religious
and that faith in "God" is not essential to working the program.
This is a bald-faced lie (as we all find out once we attend our first
meeting). Being an honest man and a lover of humanity, I cannot sit back
and let them get away with this.
I honestly tried to practice the Twelve Step program as an atheist.
No one can remain an atheist after engaging in the central activity of
Alcoholics Anonymous: working the Twelve Steps. Six of the Steps make a
direct reference to "God" or "Him." (Only one mentions
alcohol.) The American public is becoming increasingly aware of just how
religious AA is and just how central belief in the supernatural is to the
AA message of recovery. AA members can no longer get away with their semantical
dance that makes a false distinction between "spiritual" and
"religious."
Enough Is Enough!
In several courts now, the Alcoholics Anonymous message of recovery has
been found to fit the legal description of religious instruction. Agencies
in these states can no longer force clients to attend AA meetings where
people: (1) chant the "Lord's Prayer" (a direct quote from the
Protestent Christian holy book the New Testament); (2) learn faith
in a rescuing deity who answers to the names "God" and "Him";
(3) perform a variant (bastardization?) of Roman Catholic the rite of Confession;
(4) beg other-worldly beings to solve self-made problems through
supernatural intervention; (5) proselytize for the AA faith; (6) simper
and grovel; (7) tell the public that all of this is "not religious."
I don't care if people work the Steps. That's personal. But please leave
me out of it! Don't deceive me into joining your organization by claiming
that "even the biggest atheist or agnostic can recover" in AA.
This is simply not true. Stop saying that AA is suitable for all and can
work for anybody. It isn't and it can't. Tell the public what really goes
on in AA meetings, and behind closed doors with those "sponsors."
Then, and only then, will my doctor or my parole officer know better than
to send someone like me to AA. Make AA voluntary once again like it was
in the old days.
Meanwhile, I will continue to expose the frauds and other trickery that
AA spokespersons use to present AA as something that it is not.
d:^)
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Subject: lets just get the facts straight
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From: Cliff Walker
>>KB: "You should know by now there is a big difference between
religion and spirituality."
Fact: Religion is spirituality. Spirituality is religion. They are essentially
the same thing.
If you really want to split hairs, Webster's Tenth Collegiate describes
religion as being informal and spontaneous -- something that the
common people do from the heart. Meanwhile, Webster's represents spirituality
as formal and organized -- having to do with elite orders of ordained clerics.
Many AA spokespersons seem to have this backwards. But whether it is a
priest or minister practicing "spirituality" in an institutionalized,
ritualistic fashion or a lay person practicing "religion" from
the heart, they are all doing basically the same thing: exercising faith
in "God" and the supernatural. To say "there is a big difference
between religion and spirituality" is just plain wrong.
>>KB: "AA does not demand a Christian God. It only suggests
a God of your own understanding."
Fact: The god of AA is an anonymous god who closely resembles the
father-god of nineteenth-century Methodism. Many Christians,
however, are quick to point out the Christian roots of AA, such as the
fact that AA was once part of the now-defunct Oxford Movement, a quasi-cultic
Christian organization that became unpopular after its leader endorsed
Adolf Hitler. Many point out the biblical roots of the Twelve Steps. Several
passages from AA literature have been lifted directly from Catholic, Protestant,
and Mormon scripture and catechisms. And of course, there's the ever-present
"Lord's Prayer" which is a direct quote from Matthew 6:9-13,
part of "The Sermon on the Mount" from the Christian -- er, Protestant
scripture.
Meanwhile, the Twelve Steps teach: (1) the AA god is a God with a capital
"G" -- a supernatural being, a deity -- not simply a "Group
Of Drunks" or the "Great Out Doors"
or "Good Orderly Direction" or an ashtray
or a light bulb or a Harley Davidson chopper; (2) the AA god is real --
not just a figment of the imagination or a metaphor; (3) the AA god is
personal -- a "Him" -- not an inanimate, unloving force; (4)
the AA god can hear your prayers; (5) the AA god cares enough to respond
to prayer; (6) the AA god is powerful enough to alter the course of nature
to fulfill your needs and desires; (7) the AA god requires that you approach
"Him" in humility, seeking only "His" will and never
your own will. You must believe these things in order to engage
in the central activity of AA -- working the Twelve Steps. If you don't
you are working your own program (hmmm!); you do not work AA's Twelve Steps.
And they sentenced me to this garbage!
The above does not make sense to me. My understanding of "God"
is of a fairy tale that has gotten way out of hand. Variations of the "God"
myth have inspired faithful folks to slaughter untold millions who disagreed
with the dominant mythological paradigm.
In America today, addicted people who disagree with the AA mythology are
left to die by their own hands -- just like I was left to die when I went
to AA and NA for help in the mid-1970s and again in the early 1980s.
Those passages in Chapter 4 said I would never recover unless I became
willing to agree with the AA mythology. And I was (and still am) unwilling
to agree with AA.
>>KB: "People who come on line who don't know the whole picture
can get a false impression of one man's opinion. I don't bash his
beliefs lets just get the facts straight."
Oh, those poor, helpless, defenseless sheep who log on to this forum but
cannot think for themselves. We must save them from this man's opinions.
He has re-opened subjects which we thought we had neatly evaded or
entirely ignored: (1) AA is not perfect; (2) AA is not for everyone, nor
is it the only method; (3) many AA spokespersons routinely use deceitful
means to carry the AA message; (4) some AA members, when confronted with
these truths, will resort to name-calling.
>>KB: "My Higher Power is so far off the beam than conventional
religious beliefs it would make peoples toenails curl."
So are mine (not the toenails part), but the AA Big Book says that
my particular religious beliefs will prevent me from quitting drinking.
Now what? AA is the only game in town.
>>[An old post]: "There are many paths to recovery. I hope you
find your way. AA has helped a lot of alcoholics find a better life. I
have not been in a church in the last eight years except for two weddings
and a baptism. Don't believe those that say AA is religious."
Don't take our word for it, listen to AA co-founder "Doctor Bob":
If you think you are an atheist, an agnostic, a skeptic, or have
any other form of intellectual pride which keeps you from accepting what
is in this book, I feel sorry for you. (AA Big Book page 181)
It is common among AA members to differentiate between the words "religious"
and "spiritual." This semantical dance implies that religion
is inferior or phony, and that spirituality is honest and genuine. To a
non-believer, however, religion and spirituality are the same thing,
and we really don't want any part of it -- if we can help it.
The AA Big Book dedicates the entire fourth chapter ("We Agnostics")
to ridiculing the beliefs of atheists, agnostics, skeptics, freethinkers,
humanists, and other non-religious people. Such thinking is not welcome
in AA.
Of course, atheists, etc., won't be thrown out of an AA meeting; but the
Big Book is forceful in persuading us to change our ways as part
of a successful program:
To one who feels he is an atheist or agnostic such an experience
seems impossible, but to continue as he is means disaster ... To be doomed
to an alcoholic death or to live on a spiritual basis are not always easy
alternatives to face. (page 44)
Alcoholics Anonymous says that you have only two options: religion or death.
But after a while we had to face the fact that we must find a spiritual
basis of life -- or else. Perhaps it is going to be that way with you.
But cheer up, something like half of us thought we were atheists or agnostics.
(page 44)
Atheism is a form of dishonesty here -- and a delusion ("[we] thought
we were atheists").
But [the newcomer's] face falls when we speak of spiritual
matters, especially when we mention God, for we have re-opened a subject
which our man thought he had neatly evaded or entirely ignored. We know
how he feels. We have shared his honest doubt and prejudice. Some of us
have been violently anti-religious. (p 45)
... as soon as we were able to lay aside prejudice and express even
a willingness to believe in a Power greater than ourselves, we commenced
to get results ... (p 46)
Do not let any prejudice you may have against spiritual terms deter
you ... (p 47)
And don't forget that AA has a captive audience of impaired people:
[We] often found ourselves handicapped by obstinacy, sensitiveness,
and unreasoning prejudice. Many of us have been so touchy that even casual
reference to spiritual things make us bristle with antagonism. This sort
of thinking had to be abandoned.... Faced with alcoholic destruction, we
soon became ... open minded on spiritual matters ... In this respect alcohol
was a great persuader. It finally beat us into a state of reasonableness.
(p 47-8)
Now, most will admit that AA does have its "religious trappings"
or that some minor components of the AA program are spiritual in nature;
however, the Big Book places the religious conversion experience
as Priority Number One:
Lack of power, that was our dilemma. We had to find a power by which
we could live, and it had to be a Power greater than ourselves. Obviously.
But where and how were we to find this Power? Well, that's exactly what
this book is about. Its main object is to enable you to find a Power greater
than yourself which will solve your problem.... [That] means, of course,
that we are going to talk about God. Here difficulty arises with agnostics.
(page 45)
"Difficulty" is an understatement. Here AA admits that recovery
plays second-fiddle to getting religion -- er, spirituality. Frankly,
hundreds of thousands of us have not liked the "God part."
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Subject: Here we go again! (grin)
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From: Louie
Hear hear! Keep up the good work! Glad you guys were there for me!
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Subject: Here We Go Again! (grin)
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From: Ken
First of all, I want to thank Cliff Walker for his comments about me. Those
of you who have followed this board for awhile know that we haven't always
seen eye to eye. We still don't. However, we respect each other's positions
and have learned from each other.
If you have followed this board for awhile you know that Cliff Walker and
I (as well as many others) have already discussed these issues ad infinitum.
I have promised to not get into them again. Well ... I guess I'm powerless,
too.
Yes, AA is not perfect; AA is not for everyone, nor is it the only method;
some AA spokespersons use inappropriate means to carry their message; and
some AA members resort to name-calling. However, this could be said
about any organization or any program. Don't throw the baby out with the
bath water!! AA works!! AA works for a lot of people. For some, it doesn't.
So what? If you're crippled, you need a crutch. And AA is one of the best
crutches made that I know of. Now, there are others that I don't know as
much about. If I'm crippled, I'm going to want to learn what are the best
crutches out there, aren't I? AA teaches a Higher Power that it calls god
or Him or whatever. If you don't agree or can't accept that -- find another
crutch. For gosh sake, don't stay crippled!! For me, I choose to believe
in God. It works so well that I want to teach others about my God. That's
my prerogative and my right. Let's be open-minded and be willing to
here other opinions, though.
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Subject: Here We Go Again
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From: Cliff Walker
>>Ken: "If you don't agree or can't accept that -- find another
crutch. For gosh sake, don't stay crippled!!"
yes Yes!! YESSS!!!!
And if you one day find that you no longer need the crutch, stand up on
your own two feet!
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Subject: Here We Go Again
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From: KB
I never claimed AA was perfect or what is written is the end all be all.
It works and it works for millions. That is the great fact.
Now, because it did not work for you (you say it is uncovering the truth,
I call it bashing). Why overtly try to discredit. I get so tired of the
lame old excuses I just couldn't do it so I got drunk.
I was a drunk and a full out junky by the time I was 19. I drank for 11
of those and did dope for 6. By the time I got sober I was drunk 99.9%
of the time ( and shooting dope when ever I could). I was out for # 1.
I did not believe God or what ever you want to call him, was there. I didn't
work the AA program until I was over a year sober.
I was utterly miserable. I never relapsed that first year or used the excuse
it doesn't work. The point is it works when you work it. I thought
in the beginning I could do it my way. I was just as screwed up clean as
I was drunk. That is because I sat on my butt. I did just enough to get
by. That my friend was my life story. But, getting by was not cutting it.
When did will power ever stop me from anything. My self-will
got me exactly to AA . When I worked the steps of AA (progress not perfection)
my life changed. I do not live my life in fear, hatred, despair and obsession.
I will never have to be alone again.
KB
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Subject: Stand Up
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From: TB
Cliff, I have found that I never stand higher than when I am on my knees!
As Alex has said: Some of us need a crutch. I do, and my crutch is Jesus.
I'm just glad that you can recover by supporting yourself. More power to
you, but as you say: What works for one doesn't work for all. Let's all
keep an open mind and a closed bottle.
Tommy B
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Subject: Thank God for RR!
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From: Jim
I would like to thank everyone in this forum for their generally civilized
and intelligent discussion of the various methods of recovery available
for alcohol and other drug addiction. The open discourse in this forum
is both refreshing and vital to exposing those in need of help to the broadest
array of options available to them.
Unfortunately, on other forums on other services and networks, such discussion
is tragically restricted, segregated from appropriately labeled forums,
or just simply prohibited. As you can guess from my "subject label"
I have used RR to remain sober and to improve my life for more than five
years, and I am quite thankful that I was finally able to discover it despite
the lack of dissemination of information regarding alternatives to the
well-established 12 step programs.
By living the example, I have come to know what is true for myself and
what is necessary to make my life work in sobriety; and I have discovered
that the most important thing about helping others with the problem of
alcohol and other drug addictions is to help them find the path that works
best for them individually (just as any other "treatment" would
be applied) whether it be RR, SOS, WFS/MFS, or a 12-Step Group. I sincerely
hope that this developing pluralism in addictions treatment represents
the path of the future. Thank-you for facilitating this.
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Subject: Here We Go Again
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From: JD
>>KB: "It works and it works for millions. That is the
great fact."
I, too, am tired of the lies and exaggerated claims made about AA's success
rate. Why don't you people just admit the truth? AA has a horrible rate
of recidivism.
"Oh, those people just didn't work the program properly!"
Yeah, right!
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Subject: Here We Go Again
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From: BA
Thanks KB for your message. I work a 12 Step Program for a different addiction
but the message is the same. After 18 years in the program and in and out
of many relapses, I have completely surrendered....one day at a time. Your
message say's a lot for me today.
Thanks.
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Subject: guess you didn't read my posts
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From: Cliff Walker
>>KB: "Now, because it did not work for you;(you say it is uncovering
the truth, I call it bashing) why overtly try to discredit."
I guess you didn't read my posts very carefully. What I said was that AA
would not even HAVE me -- according to its own "Big Book." Why
should I stick up for AA?
>>KB: "I get so tired of the lame old excuses"
I don't think being given the wrong information is a lame excuse.
Three hundred years ago, millions died because most people thought infection
was caused by demons or was a punishment from "God." (In other
words, infection was a "spiritual disease.") With no knowledge
of antibiotics, they sent for the cleric or they told us to pray. We had
the wrong information about micro-organisms and infectious
diseases. Would you call this a lame old excuse for letting millions of
people die?
In the same way, myself and my people (atheists and humanists get drunk
too) were told that AA is the only program available and to "Work
the Steps or Die!" and that "I can't; He can; better let Him!"
The people who knew about addiction and recovery told us that "medicine,
religion, and psychiatry" don't work, so we'd better go to "the
last house on the block." When we asked if somebody might be able
to stay quit though sheer willpower, the people in recovery laughed out
loud.
Now, I watch people recover on their own every week. In fact, I spend about
20 hours each week -- without pay -- helping people perform this non-miracle
on themselves.
>>KB: "It works and it works for millions. That is the
great fact."
According to the AA paper Comments on AA's Triennial Surveys (1990;
New York: AA World Services), of every one hundred (100) people who joined
AA on this day last year, only five (5) are still in AA today. Five percent!
What pitiful numbers! This "great fact" comes straight
from AA's World Services.
When I was on the Board of the NA Office in Portland, Oregon, we sold bag
after bag of white, "Welcome To NA" newcomer chips and sold very
few nine-month or one-year commemorative chips. Our stock of
"Welcome" chips fit into about twenty zip-lock sandwich
bags; our entire stock of year coins -- for all the years put together
-- left plenty of room in one zip-lock. Gee! Where are all those newcomers
going if the program is so effective? Just think about how many people
didn't stick around.
No. AA works for a small handful of people; however, for their sake, I
not only endorse AA's need to exist, I regularly donate money to NA and
occasionally attend NA meetings (much to the chagrin of many NA fundamentalists).
You are all invited to attend my 7th NA anniversary at the Rush Hour NA
Group in Portland, Oregon on September 25th, 1995. I will celebrate, with
my newer friends, the fact that I was finally able to stop taking drugs.
I would call my old friends, too, but they're all dead. For them, I will
go home and play records and cry. They're dead, I believe, because they
didn't know any better.
>>KB: "The point is It works when you work it."
My point is that in order to work it we atheists must lie to ourselves
and say that we believe in "God" -- when we actually think that
all serious talk of "God" and the supernatural is offensive hooey
and is pure baloney.
How, then, can people like us work the Twelve Steps? We can't. We are on
our own. When they told us that nothing else works because alcoholics have
a disease which makes them unable to control themselves, we believed them.
What would you do?
Religious people have absolutely no idea -- no clue -- just how absurd
the average AA monologue sounds to an atheist. Atheists put the "God"
stories in the same category that most people place the Santa Claus myth,
with one exception: nobody ever slaughtered people en masse in the name
of Santa.
Yes. Spirituality works when you work it; I cannot deny this fact. People
have done some truly astonishing things as the result of diligently working
their religious principles -- things they would never have been able to
bring themselves to do under their own power.
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Subject: guess you didn't read my post
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From: KB
I was at the international convention in San Diego. Over 60,000 drunks
filled Jack Murphy Stadium. Most were not New Comers. Every corner in that
city you would look and see a sober drunk. The few and I mean few that
could afford to come or had the time or even knew about it were there.
This convention is growing at such a rate that it won't be able to be housed
at a stadium in the near future. I saw the success rate in action
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Subject: guess you didn't read my post
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From: LJ
I wish people would talk about what helps them in recovery instead of bashing
the programs. I would love to hear about RR, I don't know how you all do
your program, but all I hear is blah, blah, blah. I am in Al-Anon.
For me this program works. I read the literature, have a sponsor, go to
meetings, do service work and work the steps. Keep me pretty darn busy
and keeps the focus on myself. I would like to hear what helps everyone
in recovery. What a great way to grow, to hear from others and other groups.
Maybe we could all benefit.
LJ
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Subject: guess you didn't read my post
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From: BA
I am really enjoying these readings. I too am in a 12 Step Program, Overeaters
Anonymous. I have been in the program for 18 years. I wish I could say
all abstinent years, but I am free of my addictive substances today by
the grace of my HP and the fellowship. I too have seen the newcomers
come and go. Many worked the program for awhile and then left. I have to
keep my eyes on my recovery and just put one foot in front of the other
every day. I too read my literature, especially the Big Book of
AA, make calls especially to my sponsor, go to meetings, call the newcomers,
and just try to do for others what has been so freely giving to me. Most
of all....no matter what, I don't use and I keep coming back ... one day
at a time. Hugs and love ... BA
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Subject: guess you didn't read my post
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From: Ken
Cliff Walker has written one of his most succinct presentations of his
beliefs, philosophy, and perspective. He comes across as bashing and discrediting
AA; he is to a certain point. His main problem with AA seems to be it's
"religious" stance to the exclusion of atheists. We cannot disagree
that AA is a religious or spiritual program. My belief and experience is
that this is a necessary component of recovery. My experience is that it
works for a lot of people. I wish Cliff was not an atheist. I wish he would
come to the point where he believed in God. However, I can't change him
and I can't work his recovery for him.
Cliff -- what is RR's success rate?
Cliff states that he endorses AA's need for existence. He says AA works
for "a handful" -- I believe its more than that (much more!).
However, he sees AA as valid and helpful for those people who are not atheists
or agnostics. He even states that spirituality works and he can't deny
that fact. (Cliff -- I can't believe you admitted that publicly?!) Can't
we leave it at that?! I can't comprehend being an atheist anymore than
he can comprehend Christianity or God.
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Subject: guess you didn't read my post
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From: Ken
KB --
I think that this convention was great. I'm glad it happened. However,
what was your point? Do you know if everyone of these 60,000 "drunks"
was in AA? Could it be possible that some may have been in other recovery
programs? I'm sure that most were not newcomers. However, do you know the
rate of relapse for alcoholism? If I have 25% of the clients who go through
my treatment program who do not relapse, I feel very successful. Relapse
is a part of recovery!!
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Subject: You didn't read them, either.
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From: Cliff Walker
>>LJ: "I would love to hear about RR, I don't know how you all
do your program, but all I hear is blah, blah, blah."
I don't believe you. I have posted intricate, positive descriptions of
the Rational Recovery program and how to work it on this forum beginning
in May, 1995 (scroll back and see). I have offered an RR-flavored
"spin" on several issues that have been discussed here. (Again,
scroll back to May, 1995 and look for posts by Cliff Walker; if anything,
I have said too much about RR on this forum. I now try to talk more about
me.) I have responded to questions, to criticism, to gross misrepresentations,
and to personal attacks on my character. Ken and I engaged in a lengthy
and somewhat cordial debate on the disease model. The vicious personal
attacks had subsided for a while (after [the Online Service's overly sensitive
censorship cops] became involved) but a milder form of them seems to be
back. And so am I.
Briefly, Alcoholics Anonymous is a Support Group that seeks to rescue
you from yourself. Rational Recovery is a Self-Help program that points
you to yourself as the solution to your problems. If you want to
read more, you can scroll back to [a date earlier in the folder] and read
my flyer "Rational Recovery Self-Help Meetings." You can
also e-mail me at [editor@positiveatheism.org] or you can e-mail our founder, Jack
Trimpey, at rr@rational.org. I have most of my good stuff on ASCII.TXT
files that you can download and read. Just ask and I will be more than
happy to respond (but please be respectful of my dignity and my privacy).
>>LJ: "I wish people would talk about what helps them in recovery
instead of bashing the programs."
How does what you say I do differ from what you are doing? Are you criticizing
my actions here by saying that I bash other programs? In this sense, aren't
you bashing the program I work (a central component of which involves challenging
any nonsense which poses itself as fact)? So what is the difference between
my criticism of AA and your criticism of my actions? So it's called "bashing"
when I criticize AA, but it's something more noble and more benign when
somebody takes on a so-called AA basher?
Many, many people told me that AA is the only way to get clean and sober,
but I now know of other programs that work at least as effectively as AA.
People told me that anybody can fit into the AA program, but my experience
is that I didn't fit in to AA -- as the AA program is defined in AA's literature.
People told me that AA has a wonderfully high success rate, but my experience
and my observations and several studies I have read dispute these claims.
Should I then shut up about it simply because somebody might become offended?
I don't think so.
If pointing out the truth when I hear falsehood is wrong, if defending
my integrity against personal attack is wrong, if vindicating my statements
against misrepresentation is wrong, if taking on a sacred cow (which has,
until recently, escaped scrutiny) is wrong, then we are all in very deep
trouble.
>>LJ: "... talk about what helps [you] in recovery ..."
What helped me in recovery was when somebody finally pointed out to me
that the Twelve Step programs (the only game in town at the time)
are not what they're cracked up to be and are not telling us the truth.
Now I no longer have to be miserable, believing that I must continue to
attend those damn meetings for the rest of my life -- lest I somehow get
loaded again.
In the Twelve Step community, I was considered a threat and a villain
and a sicko and "in denial." Where I am today, I am respected
as a hard-working, honest, dedicated man and, at times, somewhat of
a hero. What helped me in my recovery was to see that in either case, I
am still me and I still have dignity.
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Subject: Sobriety; Group Consciousness
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From: SJ
In this Great Experiment of group consciousness known as AA we cannot maintain
our separatist, tunnel-like, point of view and at the same time understand
the deeper more absorbing implications of the process of re-orienting
and reforging our lives. We are infants, most of us, in the simple basics
of communication and the concept of harmlessness as a virtue.
And of course a lot of us are barricaded in unresolved resentments. With
such distorted angles of perception we approach each other seeking to make
an undefined but deeply needed contact. If only we can remember when we
are harmful to one another we again become prisoners. Separated. Nothing
can come in to us and nothing can flow out to the greater group reservoir
of wisdom that teaches us to distinguish within ourselves that which is
human and that which is or could be divine.
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Subject: You didn't read them, either.
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From: LJ
Well Cliff, Thanks for sharing. I have not been on this bulletin board
for long and I was not on it in May. I don't feel the need to explain or
defend what I wrote. I am glad that we have both found a program that helps
us.
Good luck to you.
LJ
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Subject: guess you didn't read my post
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From: Ken
KB, Please, please don't misunderstand me. I am pro-AA/NA. I believe
in the program. I know it works. I attend meetings and send my clients
to AA/NA. I also agree with their spiritual philosophy and stance. I believe
in God.
However, I also know that it does not work for everyone. I am open to the
possibility that some can get sober without it and some may need another
recovery program. I can also understand how a true atheist (and not willing
to change) would have great difficulty with AA. RR and other programs have
much to offer. I have attended wonderful AA meetings and bad AA meetings.
The relapse rate for addiction, whatever the method used to recover, is
terrible. AA/NA is good, but, it's not the only choice. You were exactly
right when you said "There is bad AA as there is good AA." It's
like anything else -- if you don't like the meeting (or doctor, or therapist,
or dentist, or whatever) then find a better one. Don't give up on AA because
of one bad meeting.
You state "I am lucky that I had the loving and caring people about
me." I am convinced that recovery is like life -- it is so much better
when you surround yourself with loving and caring people. We truly are
who we chose to associate with.
Ken