If You Were
To Die Tonight
Where Would You Go?
Doug
Subject: Mail worth reading that may affect your outlook on life
Date: Tue, 17 Dec 1996
From: "Doug"
To: Positive Atheism <editor@positiveatheism.org>
My name is Doug. I am a sophomore at Emmaus Bible College. I was surfing the net tonight and I stumbled across some stuff you guys wrote about atheism.
I just have two questions. One, if you were to die tonight where would you go (supposing there is a heaven and hell) and why? Second, you have the right to your own opinion about life and death, but my question is this: What if your opinion is wrong? Third question: Do you have enough confidence in what you believe in, to analyze the book of John in the New Testament, maybe a chapter a day, with an open mind, willing to let God speak to you if it was His will?
About ten years ago, I came to the realization that I have a sin nature. I can't control that nature, and no matter what happens, I will always have that nature. In fact, because of that sin in my life, I was on a one-way-ticket to eternity in Hell by my own choosing. Not a sadistic God who would enjoy torturing me, but a merciful just God who must have justice, or He is not God.
I've talked to many average people on the street, young and old, rich and poor, religious and non-religious, about where they'll go when they die. A majority say that they "hope" that they'll go to heaven when they die because they're good, moral people. That is sad. Jesus Christ gave His life in the worst possible death so that I could KNOW for sure that I am going to heaven when I die. Depending on my "religious efforts" or being pious isn't getting me to heaven. I can't save myself by going to church every Sunday or singing in the choir. The only thing I could do was to reach out and receive Jesus Christ as my personal Savior. Jesus Christ died to save me. He died to save you too. He loves you and wants to know you in a personal way. But He can't have a personal friendship with you unless you accept Him as your Savior.
I don't claim to be some holier-than-thou religious freak. I'm not a stupid person. I can think for myself, and I do a lot of historical research in my spare time. I didn't chuck my brains out the door when I accepted Christ as my Savior. I have done a lot of research about the historical claims of Jesus, and I have come to the conclusion that Jesus Christ was either a liar, a lunatic, or who He said He was, fully God and fully man. I do have a very strong relationship with Jesus Christ that I will never lose EVER. If I sin, I know that Christ has forgiven me when when He died on the cross. I know that you're probably very busy with life, but I want to challenge you to write me back and answer the two questions I asked you in the beginning of this letter. I'm going home for Christmas break tomorrow. If you feel compelled to respond over break, here's my address: [withheld] My e-mail address is: [withheld]
Take this as a dare, even. Do you have the confidence in what you believe in to respond?
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Cliff responds:
My name is Doug. I am a sophomore at Emmaus Bible College. I was surfing the net tonight and I stumbled across some stuff you guys wrote about atheism.
This is a very large page with lots of unique and differing material on it. I would like to know which pieces you read and what, exactly, you found objectionable about it. Please be specific.
Also, I cannot respond for any other writers; I can only speak for myself.
I just have two questions. One, if you were to die tonight where would you go (supposing there is a heaven and hell) and why? Second, you have the right to your own opinion about life and death, but my question is this: What if your opinion is wrong? Third question: Do you have enough confidence in what you believe in, to analyze the book of John in the New Testament, maybe a chapter a day, with an open mind, willing to let God speak to you if it was His will?
First, I don't think I'll "go" anywhere when I die. My brain will stop functioning, and there will be nothing for "me" to "be" any more. I'll be dead -- in the regular, non-metaphysical (unspiritual) sense of the word "dead." I do not, for one moment, suppose there is a Heaven or a Hell as the New Testament describes. And why would I pretend to believe what I do not believe in order to go to a "Heaven" or in order to avoid a "Hell"? Tell me why someone would honor or worship any god who would put his creatures in a "Hell" as described in the New Testament? (The concept of "Hell" is absent from the Old Testament.)
Secondly, if my opinion is wrong, I would say, "Oops!" I might go so far as to try to make the case that I was not working on very good information, as "God," according to Christians, is admittedly "hidden."
This is very unlikely, though; it is as unlikely as my dying of alcohol poisoning, seeing as how I do not drink alcohol. The reason I can rest assured that I am right on the issue of the Christian "heaven" and "Hell" is because we only hear about it from the Christian bible. We cannot test the Christian bible's claims about "Heaven" and "Hell" but we can examine and dispute its claims about other things, like the shape of the earth, the composition of the sky, the socio-political conditions of the people of Judaea during the first century, geographical locations, the time figs ripen in Jerusalem, etc. The Christian New Testament makes many, many claims which can be examined, disputed, discredited -- and disposed of. This being the case, why should I take it on its word over untestable claims like those about "Heaven" and "Hell"?
Also, the ethics and morality of the Old and New Testaments are so barbaric as to literally turn my stomach at times. My mother did much better than the "Jesus" described in the New Testament -- and so can I. If it turns out that I am wrong about the Christian "Hell," then I can rest assured that I did the right thing by not worshiping the despicable god who prepared such a place for his creatures. Such a god is unworthy of worship, but I can rest assured that such a god does not exist simply by watching the fruits of the religions that teach the existence of a "Hell." Those religions (Christianity and Islam) have each done more damage to civilization than all other human-made systems put together.
But you presuppose that Christianity -- er, faith in the New Testament "Jesus," is the only alternative to atheism. Wrong! Atheism considers all gods to be man-made and teaches that humans can live their own lives without supernatural help or guidance. I assume that you think all the other alleged gods are false gods: the Allah of the Koran; the gods of Hinduism; Thor of the Nordics; Zeus of the Greeks; Quetzalquoatl of the Mexican Indians. I agree with you except for one point: I place three more gods on the false-god roster than you do; namely, "God the Father," "God the Son," and "God the Holy Spirit."
Thirdly, as for the Book of John, I have read it, beginning to end, over 200 times. Is that good enough for you? I even tried to believe it. How's that? The Book of John is pure bullshit and could not have possibly been written by a Jew of the time Jesus is alleged to have lived. It is most certainly a forgery, attributed (in the text itself) to someone who did not write the book.
Besides, if I have not "the eyes to see" (not being "saved")
then how would you expect me to understand what I read?
About ten years ago, I came to the realization that I have a sin nature. I can't control that nature, and no matter what happens, I will always have that nature. In fact, because of that sin in my life, I was on a one-way-ticket to eternity in Hell by my own choosing. Not a sadistic God who would enjoy torturing me, but a merciful just God who must have justice, or He is not God.
Did you come to this "realization" on your own? or did someone teach that to you?
Foisting this belief system on troubled, unstable, or otherwise vulnerable people is very sadistic -- not a sadistic god (there is no such thing) but sadistic men who teach this miserable, destructive philosophy and then call each other good for so doing.
So tell me: How can a god be both just and merciful? If an offender deserves a specific degree of punishment, a god would be just if he meted out that specific punishment. He would be merciful if he meted out less than that specific punishment.
And how can a just god punish one man for the sins of another? Is this justice?
If a god were merciful, could he not simply forgive the sins of the offender? Why bother with all this redemption business?
I spend much of my spare time teaching addicted people how to quit drug
and alcohol addictions and I show them how to do this by confronting
the ideas of "powerlessness" and "unmanageability"
taught by the Christian-based Twelve Step recovery group movement. Paul
had his head up his ass when he wrote Romans Chapter 7. Bill Wilson was
equally in error when he wrote the Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous.
I've talked to many average people on the street, young and old, rich and poor, religious and non-religious, about where they'll go when they die. A majority say that they "hope" that they'll go to heaven when they die because they're good, moral people.
What is an "average" person? And what are they doing "on the street"? Are we not individuals with our own thoughts and passions?
If you had spoken to the majority of Americans, Evangelical Christians, you would have heard that their hope rests in the atoning work of Jesus Christ.
However, I don't believe your poll. I don't think you even took a poll.
I'd like to see the study results. The above statement sounds way too cliché
and contrived to be realistic.
That is sad. Jesus Christ gave His life in the worst possible death so that I could KNOW for sure that I am going to heaven when I die.
Jesus, if he existed and if he was crucified, died a death reserved for rebels who tried to go against the Roman occupation of Judaea -- a situation about which the New Testament is strangely silent. But this fits perfectly with the Jewish notion of the Messiah -- not a "God-Man," but a fully human political figure, a king, who hoped to overthrow the Roman occupation, free his people, and lead them in an autonomous government. As it happened, so many crosses were made during the rage of Titus that the area was completely denuded of trees. These for the faithful Pharisees who loved their country and their culture and their religion -- Judaism. The historical Jesus, if he existed, was probably one of those valiant Pharisees, and probably died for thinking he could free his nation from this tyrrany. The denunciation of the Pharisees by the Gospel "Jesus" is certainly wrong because he criticizes them for things they did not even do; the Pharisees had no problem whatsoever with Sabbath healing contrary to what is portrayed of them in the Gospel tale.
Why is the New Testament silent on the most obvious and ominous condition
of the people of Palestine during the first century? You would think that
such a situation would warrant some mention in passing, if not major commentary.
And why are the Gospels so viciously anti-Jewish and so flagrantly pro-Roman?
Every Roman mentioned in all four Gospels is virtuous and, ultimately,
commended for his faith. And almost every Jew is pictured as faithless
and wicked. Was the New Testament intended as anti-Jewish political propaganda
during the rage of the Roman armies? Was it written by Romans and Roman
sympathizers? By the time these accounts were written and circulated, were
there any of the brave Jerusalem Jews left (after the Romans' slaughter)
to dispute the Gospel stories? or were most of them killed and scattered
in 70 C.E. and 132 C.E.?
Depending on my "religious efforts" or being pious isn't getting me to heaven. I can't save myself by going to church every Sunday or singing in the choir.
I agree. Stop wasting your time and live your own life. Stop supporting
the madness that the Christian religion advocates in its teachings. There
are important things to be done and life can be fun at times. You cannot
save yourself because you don't need saving. You are human and that is
good enough. (At least, that is good enough for me!)
The only thing I could do was to reach out and receive Jesus Christ as my personal Savior.
I'm sure this was not your only option. Think about it for a minute.
Jesus Christ died to save me. He died to save you too. He loves you and wants to know you in a personal way. But He can't have a personal friendship with you unless you accept Him as your Savior.
Whatever.
I don't claim to be some holier-than-thou religious freak.
You don't need to make any such claims; your character shows by your words and your ideas without the benefit of a claim.
By the way, your ideas are not original. I have read nothing in your
letter that I have not already seen on Cable TV -- and I don't even have
a TV!
I'm not a stupid person. I can think for myself, and I do a lot of historical research in my spare time.
And you still give credence to the gods of the New Testament? after what the Christian Church has done to our cultre and our people during the past 2000 years? Come, now! Even you can know a tree by its fruits, and just a cursory study -- a mere scan -- of European history shows that the tree of Christianity, the tree of of faith in "Jesus," is rotten to the core.
I know that "Jesus" doesn't love me: he is dead (if he existed
at all). But I care about you, because I was caught up in the same game
once myself. I hate to see people caught in that trap and I hate what biblical
Christianity does to people's minds and personalities. Biblical Christianity
can be very deadly -- not only for the believer, but for the believer's
victims as well.
I didn't chuck my brains out the door when I accepted Christ as my Savior.
No. That usually happens before somebody does such a thing.
I have done a lot of research about the historical claims of Jesus, and I have come to the conclusion that Jesus Christ was either a liar, a lunatic, or who He said He was, fully God and fully man.
First, these three are not the only choices; I don't think a first-century Jew named Jesus ever claimed to be a deity.
Secondly, has your "research" gone beyond the shallowness
of a Josh McDowell book? Have you
taken on Wells or Burton or Mack? I think not! Some friends of mine own
a Christian bookstore in another state, and they refuse to sell McDowell's
books because they think his approach is deceitful, and that Jesus is a
god of Truth. They tell me that McDowell's teachings detract from what
dignity Christianity does have. You can -- and should -- do much better
than this!
I do have a very strong relationship with Jesus Christ that I will never lose EVER.
The one thing I never dispute is a personal religious experience which comes entirely from within and is not contrived by slick preachers or frantic meetings or cryptic scrolls of dubious origin. What I doubt is that an entity named "Jesus Christ" knows about your relationship.
I once thought I had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. However,
when I discovered that nobody thinks Peter wrote Second Peter,
I began to realize, slowly, that the Bible is not the truth. My faith eventually
unraveled. I think if there was a god who answers prayer, he would most
certainly answered my final prayers, "Help me in my unbelief."
If I sin, I know that Christ has forgiven me when when He died on the cross.
And Jeffery Dahmer and John Wayne Gacy and Adolph Hitler and John Calvin
and Pope Innocent III -- all Christians -- were forgiven, too? Where do
you draw the line? Are Albert Schweitzer and Mahatma Gandhi and Thomas
Paine and Thomas Edison and Abraham Lincoln -- all non-Christians -- roasting
in "Hell" right now? just because they disagree with you on unverifyable
theological points? just because they belonged to the wrong religion?
I know that you're probably very busy with life, but I want to challenge you to write me back and answer the two questions I asked you in the beginning of this letter.
I'll do better than that, I posted your letter for the benefit and education
of my readers, and even graced it with a running commentary courtest of
moi.
I'm going home for Christmas break tomorrow. If you feel compelled to respond over break, here's my address: [withheld]
My e-mail address is: [withheld]
Take this as a dare, even.
A dare, indeed! How dare you suppose I would fall for such a childish
game! I am a human and will respond with the dignity of a human.
Do you have the confidence in what you believe in to respond?
I don't "believe" anything. I make observations, suspend judgement, draw conclusions, etc. Of course, I don't suppose they emphasize, or even honor, such critical thinking skills at bible school.
At one point, I wanted to be a preacher. I'm glad I never went to seminary, as I am too honest to teach what I know is untrue. I would be a miserable man indeed had I invested my life in that training.
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